I hope you're all doing okay, I haven't been seeing many updates from you guys D:
I miss you all, and I'm sorry I've been in such a funk lately. I did manage to step outside the apartment the other day and stalked a baby squirrel with my camera It was cute, up until a robin decided to fly over and attack the baby for the bread I was giving it. That was a bit much. The poor little guy left after that, but that damn robin wouldn't leave me alone and followed me everywhere I went.

I had a bath with my cat yesterday Not that I'm in to that kind of animal porn or anything xD I was just laying in the bath tub, trying to get rid of some aches I've been having lately, when Dave came in to the bathroom with my cat, and plopped her on to my belly XD She just looked around, then climbed in the water and walked around. The water was too high for her to lay down, so she climbed back on my belly and curled up in to a ball. It was hilarious, she's such a weird kitty Ever since I was little she loved water, and would come running when she heard me getting a bath ready. I wish I took pictures, but that would be awkward to post... with me being naked and all... XD

I've been baking a lot.. seriously. I've been doing everything from scratch, since I have nothing better to do during the day. I've made chocolate peanut butter bars (my moms recipe), chocolate cakes, cherry and apple pies (even the crust!), brownies... and surprisingly I haven't gained any weight from it XD I also made my first pizza, which was quite hard to do without a rolling pin e.e I've been getting quite creative in the kitchen, made my own version of parmesan chicken. I some bread crumbs with the cheese, rolled the chicken in it, shoved it on to a pan, and put tomato sauce on it before I shoved it in to the oven. I also made my first roast ham, and made my own sauce for it that consisted of mustard and maple syrup XD I make strange things some times

I absolutely love Dave's mom, she's just amazing in every way. I was talking to her a few weeks ago because I was upset about not getting a job, and how I felt bad for Dave and her paying for everything. But what she told me.. was so unexpected. She said, "Don't worry about paying any bills, I'm just as happy as Dave is about you being here. I haven't seen Dave happy or calm for years, and he seems to be doing okay with you here. You've taken a lot of worry off of my chest, because you've been keeping him from things he shouldn't be doing." And after that conversation took a different direction, she said to me "I'm proud of you. You've come through so much, You're so strong, mature and the most well put together 17 year old I have ever met." No one has ever said that to me.. ever. My mom had never said she was proud of me, neither has my aunt. And they've both uncountably told me I had to grow up. But Dave's mom, she.. there's no other way to put it than she made me all warm and fuzzy inside. I feel so welcome with her. She gives me a hug and a kiss on the cheek, she just treats me like I'm her own.

Everything seems to be looking up a little bit, now if only I could find a damn job...

I've also been trying to quit smoking, but it seems the harder I try, the more I end up smoking. Before, I might of had anywhere between 10-20 a day. Now... I don't even want to count how many I've been having.

Anyways, in due time I'll finally quit. It would be a lot easier if Dave wasn't always smoking though e.e